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The Thin Line Between Love and Hate
Oct 21, 2025
The Thin Line Between Love and Hate
Oct 21, 2025

There was once a fantasy man, silent, slightly dangerous, tall, handsome, frequently masked. Yes, I was in love with the Phantom from the comics, the the Phantom who lived in a place called Bengalla, in the Skull Cave, with Hero the white horse and his wolf, Devil. Unfortunately, he had a sexy, adult girlfriend named Diane Palmer whom I ignored. After all, as a nine-year-old girl whose mother cut her crooked bangs, I could not compete with the large-bosomed Diane. But then there was The Highway Man who in the poem, loved Bess, the landlord’s daughter. Bess warns the highway man away from an ambush by shooting herself with a musket but then he returns to the inn and is shot. His ghost still rides the road to the inn. I used to read this poem aloud to our cleaning ladies who found my obsession with love and death odd in someone so young and seemingly safe in a New Jersey farmhouse. And don’t get me started on vampires!

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Oct 21, 2025
Civil Disobedience
Oct 13, 2025
Civil Disobedience
Oct 13, 2025

In 1969, I was twelve and when my father said he was going to drive to Washington to protest the Vietnam War, I asked if I could go with him. The year before had been marked by the assassinations of Martin Luther King, Jr. and Bobby Kennedy, the Chicago Democratic Convention which was televised live, and violent antiwar demonstrations on college campuses. My oldest sister was attending Radcliffe, and I was terrified that she was going to be killed.

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Oct 13, 2025
I’m Dying Here
Oct 5, 2025
I’m Dying Here
Oct 5, 2025

Until now I have never, yes never, experienced writer’s block. If I had nothing to say, I did something else; baked bread, went to the movies or a museum, walked, read a book. I was fine to not be writing. If I had nothing to say I was able to redirect and find a way to feed my creative life. But this feels different. There’s a pause which I’ve experienced before, waiting to hear from an editor or agent. But this pause is uncomfortable, and I can’t seem to avoid bad things like scrolling on my phone to watch videos of cats wearing hats, beating up bewildered dogs or simply staring the way cats frequently stare. Or insanely unhealthy food being prepared by skinny, chirpy women; pounds of butter, condensed milk, peanut butter. or chocolate baked into cookies or cakes.

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Oct 5, 2025
How to Be Subversive
Sep 29, 2025
How to Be Subversive
Sep 29, 2025

I come from a subversive stock. No, my parents never overthrew a government, but they were people who looked at certain institutions and made fun of them. The first time my mother saw my new baby, she said, “With that much head, you expect more body.” Another time, after my father had broken a bone in his neck and I said he looked like a poet because his hair had grown so long, my mother said, “Yes, a poet coming out of a drain,” because of his neck brace. Their wit and intelligence made it hard to condemn this behavior. When my father was a visiting writer at Bread Loaf, a venerated literary summer school, he kept threatening to put on what he described as his “Irish serf hat” and grovel on the lawn of the Director. He refused to socialize with the acceptable, high value people and instead hung out with the runaway nuns, very common during the seventies.

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Sep 29, 2025
Weight: A Love Story
Sep 2, 2025
Weight: A Love Story
Sep 2, 2025

I’m not sure if it was WWI or the Irish potato famine that caused my grandmother to be such an enemy of the plump, the chubby, the…fat. She passed this down to my parents who, especially my mother, were capable of judging an entire population based on their weight. When they visited me in Chicago they told me, “We love it here. Why is everyone so fat?” Which they weren’t except they were but who cares? My years of living in New York City during the eighties, one of the most fatphobic decades ever, being broke so I walked nearly everywhere but also like most New Yorkers took public transportation which burned plenty of calories.  I had seen eating disorders up close, a woman I stayed with in Paris kept horrible bits of food in jars all over her flat and often arrived at the end of a restaurant meal to eat scraps from the table.

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Sep 2, 2025
 Tonight is Not the Night
Aug 25, 2025
 Tonight is Not the Night
Aug 25, 2025

I was in an Uber headed to the airport when Rod Stewart’s raspy voice singing Tonight’s the Night filled the car with some of the most sexist, disturbing lyrics I’ve ever heard in my life. I came of age in the seventies. It sucked. Sex was everywhere and because of the lack of AIDS and a plethora of ways to not have a baby, it was offered the same way you might offer someone a glass of water. At least where I grew up. And then there was this.

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Aug 25, 2025
December 1982
Aug 18, 2025
December 1982
Aug 18, 2025

In 1982 I was twenty-five, my eldest sister was alive and well, my best friend had been killed four years earlier. I was trying to get sober, obsessed with my weight and men and my parent’s approval. I wanted to write and act and not drink again. I would drink again. My roommate would wake from her coma and recover because she was determined to take her life back. I wish I better understood how hard that was for her. From my perspective ( forty years plus ), this girl is a mess, funny, angry, needy, confused. Constantly doubting herself in terms of men and I can’t remember who 98% of these men she mentions were! Apparently, I was good at meeting them, not so good at keeping them in my life probably because I was spinning too fast to be held down. And, trying to figure out my father. A dead-end for sure.

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Aug 18, 2025
Healing Words
Aug 4, 2025
Healing Words
Aug 4, 2025

There were many untold stories in my family. Most of my story remained untold until I discovered the comfort of writing, all of it in a journal until I began to get published in my late twenties. There were descriptions of things I had kept secret, a rape, excessive drinking, my suffering as a child of an adored father who had black, drunken rages, my own alcoholism, the heartbreak of falling in love and then out, my own shame until I stopped drinking and believed someone who told me my writing had power.

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Aug 4, 2025
More About Why Writers Suck
Jul 29, 2025
More About Why Writers Suck
Jul 29, 2025

“For someone who just had their first novel published, you seem less than happy.” I was lying in a fetal position on my then boyfriend’s bed, a writer for Rolling Stone magazine, said novel clutched to my stomach sobbing, because my father had been mean to me. Thirteen years later when novel number three was published, I was having a screaming fight with my ex-husband during a physical exam which inspired my then doctor to put me on Prozac and recommend I get more sleep. When the first check arrived, I carefully signed the back and then, inexplicably, found an envelope and a stamp and mailed it to someone who had nothing to do with the book. I then announced I had lost the check and was certain my publisher would refuse to replace it and burst into tears. I handle success poorly.

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Jul 29, 2025
How to Teach Writing
Jul 21, 2025
How to Teach Writing
Jul 21, 2025

I had no idea what I was doing at first. That class, a group of men who had recently immigrated from Haiti, were painfully polite and kind despite my incompetence. I spoke too fast, I used vocabulary terms they didn’t recognize, I was constantly handing out things and then realizing they were too advanced and taking them back, aware that these men would lose their right to a free education if they failed the final exam for the third time and most of them had already failed twice. I called my father for help but he had never dealt with this sort of student having taught literate, driven, and mostly brilliant graduate students’ Anglo-Irish poetry and Dickens. Finally, I went back to the writers who had inspired me with their stories about learning and teachers who had changed their lives or students whom they had educated. I reread Teacher Man by Frank McCourt and found his approach, storytelling and humor, was helpful, but I was younger than most of my students, and a woman, which meant I had to find a path towards mutual respect. Somehow I remembered the James Baldwin essay, A Letter to My Nephew, in which Baldwin urges his younger relative not to turn bitter and angry in the face of racism but to find a way to survive and live with dignity. It is filled with tenderness and rage.

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Jul 21, 2025
Mr. Fix-It
Jul 15, 2025
Mr. Fix-It
Jul 15, 2025

Before I married Mr. Fix-It we broke up. But since I had already paid him to put up shelves in my kitchen, he did the job. As I removed the turkey from the oven on Thanksgiving, there was the sound of things separating from the wall of shelves now filled with breakable objects and then a massive crash. He is an iron worker who could find a stud in his sleep. This was sabotage. I, on the other hand, can’t hold a tape measure straight. While I spent two years pretending to understand the process of installing telephones, drilling into concrete, climbing telephone poles, I didn’t actually comprehend any part of my foreperson’s job except for schmoozing customers and telling my gang to wear eye protection. I was a fraud.

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Jul 15, 2025
Houseguests
Jul 7, 2025
Houseguests
Jul 7, 2025

When I was eleven and we lived in London, I was invited to spend the weekend with a school friend. What I remember was the family spoke Hebrew and never translated anything and also they ate weird food. It was not a happy experience. At eighteen, the summer before I went to college, I spent a month in Ireland, travelling around and ended up as a house guest to a family friend, a very famous writer with a wife who was much younger and would eventually run off with an even richer man. Anyway, I arrived at the gate of their massive manor house and as I walked up the driveway with my backpack, two of the largest dogs I had ever seen in my life silently appeared on either side of me to escort me to the front door of what resembled a palace. When I knocked, a window above was opened and this woman, a very pretty, naked women draped in the curtain, came out on the balcony and told me to wait.

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Jul 7, 2025

 

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